I’ve been thinking about doing this for some time. I created a separate blog a few months back, where I could rant and rave about the less exciting aspects of my life, such as work and my emotional state. But something just didn’t feel write when I created it, so I deleted it and found myself back at square one.
I think that the writer in me needs space from everything else. I don’t quite know why I feel this way, but I do. So creating this space purely just for writing and anything relating to the craft of writing is, hopefully, the right step. I may find that I don’t want to nurture this any longer in a week, maybe even in a few days. But right now, I feel like I need this space away from my main blog, which I want to dedicate solely to my pursuit of art and Graphic Design and Star Wars. Those things go hand in hand and are perfect for each other. But the writer in me feels like I’m letting myself down by not dedicating my time to the one thing I know deserves it.
I sometimes feel shattered into a million pieces, and I’m forever trying to put myself back together. I feel so frustrated with life lately, angry at myself and just aimless. I’ve all but given up my career pursuits, and I can’t even tell you why. The only thing I feel anything positive about is creating art and edits in Adobe software and even those things don’t keep me from feeling lost within myself.
I don’t expect anyone to understand, I write this mostly for myself because I need to. I need to air my grievances with myself, with life with everything. I have so much frustration building up inside, I feel like I really need to punch something hard! Not that I want to be violent, but that I feel like that might actually make me feel anything close to okay about my life right now.