Good day or night fellow writers and readers. As I said yesterday, writing as I go through this whatever it is process. I don’t really know what to call it but I know what I’m feeling. I am feeling all the things Steven Pressfield has outlined his book.
I picked up the book yesterday and as I write this,
I am half-way through it. I have now finished his book. Already I am beginning to feel the shame of letting myself down and letting fear and uncertainty into my mind and most importantly, my soul.
Steven Pressfield is a god-fearing man which is perfectly okay. He may look at certain aspects of living as a writer differently but the message is the same whether you believe in a higher power or not.
Here’s another snippet from his book, something that I read and re-read a few times because it resonated with me – it was and is me and it’s probably you, too:
T h e p r o f e s s i o n a l has l e a r n e d better. H e r e s p e c t s R e s i s t a n c e . He k n o w s if he c a v e s in today, no matter how p l a u s i b l e the p r e t e x t , h e ‘ l l be twice as likely to c a v e in t o m o r r o w .Steven Pressfield – The War of Art
Sorry about the formatting. The viewer I was using to read it did something funky to the text. But in a way, it made important statements stand out for me. I have done exactly what he writes about in his book dozens of times over. But that isn’t what fascinates me the most. Steven Pressfield works in the same industry I aspire to be in – the film industry. He is a writer first and foremost, but he’s written for the industry I love. Don’t get me wrong, I’d be happy just to publish a book at this point. But I always imagine my stories being played out as a movie and I think there is more to that than I realised. At first I thought my brain was just wired that way because I am a film addict. But I think my sub-conscience was sending me messages all along that I had been routinely ignoring.
Author’s note and update
I believe to be any type of writer that succeeds, you need to read what other writers have done. Their journey will become yours. And that’s all there is to that really.
So I just had a sort of mini-break down. I stopped reading to eat lunch and started watching Tom Holland talk about how he became an actor and more importantly, why he became an actor and something he said just triggered me so much I started balling my eyes out.
“Maybe this is what I was supposed to do. Maybe this is what the world’s been trying to tell me. I’ve been trying to push this away for so long, but it keeps finding me again”…Tom Holland – Deadline Interview “The film that lit my fuse”
This is why I relate to that so much because I have had the exact same experience with writing. I swore to myself for the longest time that I would never write a book or even a short story. I would never do that because I just couldn’t be that person or do what was required to be that person. But now, if I had to put it into words, next to my family, writing is the only thing that has been constant in my life. It has been there through everything. It has helped me through the darkest shit in my life. My father was a writer so it has been there in my blood and I was trying to ignore it. I know that sounds dramatic but that is exactly how I feel about it. I never thought I’d publish my own short story on my own blog, and I did. I never thought I had it in me to ever do a NANOWRIMO, and I did. Being this person I kept saying I wasn’t has stopped me from doing the one thing I know I can do and that is write.
I will think some more on this topic as I have now finished the book and need to sit with what I have learned for at least one night. And I will write about what I have taken away from this book and what I haven’t tomorrow in the hope that I can help someone else that is struggling with their creativity.
And I want to point to Tom Holland’s interview again because honestly, this is one of the best interviews I’ve seen, not just of Tom Holland but of any actor. He talks about a lot of the themes that I’ve come across in this book – he talks about who he thought he was as opposed to who he wanted or needed to be. He also talks about how different he feels about the industry and the people in it and how he wants to continue making films that are important going forward. These things are all outlined in this book in one way or another, particularly the chapters that talk about the self and the ego. So here’s the link for that interview again. Check it out if you want or perhaps, read this book first then check out his interview and you will see the similarities between the two.
And finally, I’d like to openly thank the person, jdelancy that had the time and patience to read about my struggles and reply with the title of this book. Thank you so much. I feel a lot better having read it. I am in a better place than I was. Thank you again.